Pan Finish

 

Pan another Kerby Rosane finish.

Anubis

 

This is my favorite one I did this year so far. It turned out way better than I thought it would. It is also a Kerby Rosane piece of art.

Addiction

 We all have our vices when it comes to addiction and what they are. It's not always drugs or booze or porn 😛 And this month is already half over into the new year. 

There are things I wanted to set out and accomplish for myself and sadly none of them have happened because of my addiction to being online. Online has become my form of social activity without the risk. I can interact with anybody and everybody the world over and never have to leave home. But yet at the same time that means I feel like I'm only living my life online and not in the real world. 

Yes, while online can be good for a lot of things for me it isn't right now in this season of my life. I can't exist in two different worlds and still feel whole and complete let alone at peace. My family, my household, my life just aren't getting prioritize they way they should be. 

While I have enjoyed my time online there has been too many drawbacks in all areas of my online life.

I have been fighting this for a long while. And it keeps bringing me around to this. So come Monday this blog will no longer exist. It also means that my Instagram will also no longer exist come Monday. I have to do what is right for my mental health. 

I wish everyone the very best and much health and happiness in whatever ways that works for you.

My Drawing

 This drawing of mine came from a dream I had that scared the living daylights out of me. I don't usually dream of animals like this.

WHY

 This has got me wondering........why......has all of America accepted and is following a faith, spiritual belief system that NEVER originated here in the USA? 

Christianity came to Rome by the way of the Old World or ARABIC faiths.......now the last I knew I wasn't Roman  nor am I of  the Arabic world, so why follow a belief system that is NOT based here?

It's like you're parent asking you would you jump off a cliff because everyone else was doing it? Or would you have the sense enough to say hey wait a minute.

People came here from England and all over to escape religious persecution and to separate religion from state matters. So once again they bought belief systems here not one that was already here of it's own origin. 

There is even a lot of Native Americans who believe we come from Aliens. Now I don't believe we come from Aliens. Do I believe that Aliens exist? I don't know but how can I claim I don't when I was taught to believe in God, Angels, Demons and Satan himself ??????? What makes one more valid then the other?

So, why follow blindly of another faith? When I started the deconstruction of belief systems I realized that I pushed away uncomfortable thoughts of a deities actions because it was so widely accepted and NOT questioned....when I did start questioning the actions and contradictions within these belief systems and systems that were just put together nilly willy it made me start really thinking. 

Yes, even as far as I know since I'm leaning towards my Native American roots that originated here in the US it is still a system of belief made up by man. It has no written record even though the bible has a written record it was still produced millions of times over and has so many different denominations or sects that no one knows how ORIGINAL it is or even truthful. 

And it has got me thinking would I really be better off going along these lines? Truthfully, at this point I would consider myself an Atheist but I don't qualify because I belief in a Spirit, a Source, A Higher power of SOME kind. But truthfully right now it kind of turns my stomach thinking how gullible we all are to a certain point because we want to believe in something better, that we weren't just an accident of the universe and that some higher power is looking out for the good of humanity but I have to cry foul on that end to. 

NO God, Deity, Spirit has come to earth to turn humans around.....there have been lots of prophets who tried and look at where that got them, crucified, burned at the stake, killed in some shape or fashion. How many times has it been said, preached, told that the end of times were here, that the world was ending on such and such date and guess what, it all never happened. WHY??????? If all of that was divine revelation, why hasn't it happened? But I will tell you what it has done. It has caused people major anxiety, hysteria, down right panic for their well being. 

Something I have never understood about the organized religions, why is everyone so willing and hyped to die? Cause that is what is going to happen when the world ends. You are willing to sacrifice yourself and all those that you love for a so called promise of becoming immortal in spirit??????????

Call me cynical but I'm not so willing to put my faith in a god who is nothing but a contradiction unto itself.  The new testament claims that he is a loving and forgiving god but yet in the new testament it says if you dont believe and worship him or aren't baptized HE will send you to Hell. How is that a loving and forgiving god? How is 1 religion the ONLY religion and everyone else who believes differently is going to hell for it? Where is the understanding, forgiveness of that? How is it loving and forgiving God who out right HATES bisexual and gay people ??????????? Why do they deserve to go to Hell just because they are DIFFERENT? Where is the FORGIVENESS, the LOVE ? It's not. Don't we already have enough hate in this world? Why would you follow something that declares this as a written law ? 

Yeah the more I think about all of these different man made belief systems the more I want to say to hell with all of them.

Living With Chronic Pain

 

Living with chronic pain literally sucks the life out of you. For the most part I try to push through it. But there are some days when that just isn't possible this week has started out as one of them. 

It's worst going to the doctor. You walk in and seem fine which automatically makes them bias. They run all kinds of test and those all come back with nothing wrong, so therefore you're lying. I've lost track of the times the doctor has told me there is nothing wrong with you. After so many visits like this you lose all faith in doctors and their abilities. 

You get sick and tired of taking a ton of pills to help even dull the damn pain or make it go away for a few hours at best. This is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. 

This is a wonderful creator on Facebook whom I follow. I like her art work. And this is true but there is just some days that makes it impossible to believe otherwise. It tears at your mental stability anyways. 

Just because someone looks okay to you doesnt mean they actually are. So remember to be kind not only to yourself but others around you.

Dungeon Master

 

Description: Series Dungeons and Doms

Rule Zero: The Dungeon Master Makes the Rules.

Ten years after divorce, Leah is finally ready to move on. No more ex-with-benefits at the club she and her ex belong to. No more scenes together, no matter how hot they are. She's ready to find someone to spend the rest of her life with.

So is her ex, but then Gavin drops the bombshell: he wants to move on by winning her back.

Unfortunately, he might already be too late. When he shows up to declare his intentions, Leah's on her way out the door for a date with someone else.

Gavin won her heart once and he's determined to win that battle again, no matter the odds.

 

Rating: 5 Stars

 

My Thoughts:

 

I absolutely loved this book. The cover isn't bad eye candy at all but for once it was the title that drew me in and then when I found out that Leah and Gavin were an older couple I was a goner hook line and sinker. The fact that Leah and Gavin held themselves as well as each other accountable where it mattered in this relationship really surprised me. And the fact that this story has another beloved blast from the past twist just endeared it to me even more and I am on a mission now to complete the rest in this series. I highly recommend this story among others by Golden Angel. 

 

Links

 

Author: Amazon  Golden Angel

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Instagram Golden Angel

 

A Fan Of Horror

 I am a big fan of the paranormal and horror genre. I especially like the movies concerning the The Nun

I listened to a you tube video about the history of the place where this story originated from. Just another cruel example of organized religion. 

The story goes that a monk and a nun fell in love and had sexual relations which went against the RULES of the monastery and nunnery she was from. Well they were found out and there was a trial held at the monastery for them both. 

The monk was hung there on the grounds and the poor nun she was walled up in the monastery left to go insane and starve to death or so that story goes. They were kinder to the monk then the nun. Her skull had been found inside the monastery but her body had actually been found at the bottom of the well outside. But that isn't any better than the other. This is a religion that preaches LOVE, FORGIVENESS where was it for the monk and the nun? 

I can't say I blame the nun for haunting the monastery. If that had been done to me I would most likely haunt the living too. I highly doubt that my soul would have been at peace. Killing two people for finding another path other than what they had originally thought to be a calling was grounds for cruelly murdering them in the name of the religion and Christ. 

This is a running and occurring theme throughout history no matter the age or time period. Look at the Holy Wars, look at the old testament of the bible, look at the witch trials, look at the current evidence of the home for the native american children in Canada where mass graves of children were found run by the organized religion of Christianity. 

Im NOT saying all people who follow this religion is bad but the people who run it are time and time again. Look at the Catholic priest who were found out molesting little boys in their care. Look at Africa where women to this day are being burned at the stake because they fell away from the faith. And this is in OUR lifetime that religion is doing this.

 I'm happy for the people who can find comfort in their faith no matter what it is but for me there is just too much death, hatred, revenge, out right cruelty for me to ever be part of such a faith or organized religion.

Camilla d'Errico Finish

 

Merry Fairy Finish

 This artist is Deborah Muller.

Cirlce Of Life Finish

 

Artist Melpomeni Chatzipanagiotou

By Camilla d"Errico

 

This is another one of my favorites so far this year done in my favorite color of greens. 

This one I did in markers. 

I enjoy her art work as it is always something completely different.

Making Changes

 

Out of 8 days I've had 2 sodas. It's strange because when I drank the sodas they tasted "off" not as good, not really something I wanted. That's huge coming from someone who was definitely a big time soda drinker. But I also believe this has a lot to do with mindset as well. This is also where I've been relying on Great Spirits help to keep my mindset of being able to do without it. It may sound corny to you but it works for me. I am also back to drinking a lot of tea which I'm finding I love again.

Last weeks weigh in had me at 228.6 and today's weigh in had me at 226 which would mean I'm down 2.6 lbs. And the weird thing about it I'm NOT exercising. I hate exercise. So what am I doing physically? I'm making sure I'm more ACTIVE whether it's around the house, when I go out to the store I will take extra time just to walk around the store, I park farther away from the entrance which means more walking, being more active. 

Do I feel like I've already failed this challenge since I had 2 sodas? NO. Because for one I knew somewhere in the 30 days my mind and body would crave, rebel the restriction. If I say I CANT have this or that I would do it just to prove myself otherwise. For me that is my human nature so I stopped being upset, pissed off, putting myself down for doing otherwise. It's realistic human behavior and that is also part of the mindset for me. 

My military hottie romance. Yes, I am giving this story a 4 star because towards the end it made me tear up and want to cry good tears. Its between a Seal and a lawyer who works divorce cases. Each of them has a young child. They both lost their spouses  due to uncontrollable circumstances. Fate bought them together once before but is bringing them full circle this time. I highly recommend this story especially if you like HEA. 

I have colored 3 new pages so far this year. 

This is from my Harry Potter coloring book, it was the last book of 2023 I bought. This I did with Gel pens.

This is from Fragile Worlds by Kerby Rosanes. The frogs weren't meant to be poison ones but I made them that. I did this with my Soucolor pencils. I'm very proud of how this picture turned out.

This one is from World Of Wonders by Johanna Basford. This one is also done with my Soucolor pencils in a limited palette. 

I thought I had found me a new series to watch on the CW channel titled 

I love Orcas and whales and this has to do with Oceanic wild life. It has a great idea and concept.

Unfortunately the actors just killed it for me. Especially these two. Now him I've watched in other shows, movies. He's a decent actor. Her I've never seen and don't care to watch anything with her in it again. The acting between these 2 ex lovers is so forced and unbelievable. 

The entire show is so SLOW paced that it kills any interest it might hold. I couldn't make it pass the 2nd episode. 

I'm doing good on my no spend challenge. On this front I also have 2 days out of 8 where I got something, but that's not too bad. I am proud of myself cause I didn't spend even though I wanted to. This has gone on my wish list for a future purchase.

 It has some really cool pictures in it.

The Three Amigos

 

This is another Kerby Rosane drawing although I did change it a bit. I made them poisoned frogs which they weren't supposed to be.

Almost The Weekend

 

It's super cold in Tx right now, 34 freezing degrees !!!! And we ain't even got any snow.

I'm going to be changing who I follow on Instagram planner account wise. While I love all the pretty planning, the picture perfect planners to me that shit just ain't real planning. And I'm sick of seeing picture perfect planners cause life is not perfect in any shape or form. So that part of it will go way down.

Way Down We Go 😁

On the health front I haven't done too bad. I have managed 4 days of no soda. And while I may have thought about it I haven't actually wanted it. I've exercised 1 day but been active for 2 days. I have been getting in my sleep except for last night. I have only slept maybe a total of 3 hrs so a nap will definitely be in the cards today. 

I have been reading, right now I'm enjoying 

Yes, I have a weakness for military romances. The eye candy on the cover doesnt hurt either lol. 

On the coloring front I haven't been doing much because of my hands cramping up, the life of old age. 

Our grandson did the sweetest thing for me for xmas. He knows Nana well. 

This is Tom Nook the loan shark of Animal Crossing New Horizons and this is where I keep it on the couch so that I can see it daily and let it remind me of my sweet little man bubba.

Harry Potter Finish

 

Sables Santa Daddy

 

Description: Series Clover City Littles

No one makes a little's Christmas wish come true like a Santa daddy...

Jethro Del Bosque owns Clover City’s best garden center. He’s also Clover City’s most sought after Santa, and he’s got his eye on one of his elves.

Sable Hollingsford is heir to the Hollingsford real estate fortune, and she’s one of the city’s wealthiest and most sophisticated women. She’s completely out of Jethro’s league.

Sable’s always wanted a daddy who would spoil and discipline her, and she’s always liked the look of Jethro, but being little isn’t in the cards for a ruthless businesswoman like her.

Except a chance encounter at the club Jethro frequents and where Sable fulfills her secret needs gives them an inkling of hope. And when a stranger at the club won’t take no for an answer, Jethro rushes to Sable’s aid. His heroics give them both second thoughts about what might be possible...especially at Christmas.

Sable’s Santa Daddy is a standalone in a new series set in Clover City where littles can meet their forever caregivers. It features a stern and devoted daddy who wants to give his little miss what’s really important in life, and a poor little rich girl who’s in need of a particular kind of Santa to make all her Christmas wishes come true.

Rating 3 stars

My Thoughts: 

I really enjoyed reading this. This is my first book read by Honey Meyer. It's been awhile since I read DD/lg kink but it was tastefully done. I will admit though I won't be able to look at Santa or his elves ever the same again lol. I read it in 2 days. It is my first in the A to Z reading Challenge. There is a lot of erotic hot scenes to bring up your temperature which I enjoyed but I think the favorite part of the book for me was the last couple of chapters. I cant say much more or it'll give it away.  

Links

Author Amazon Honey Meyer

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Instagram Honey Meyer

 

2024

 Wow, I can't believe it's a new year but so glad to say goodbye to 2023. 

I am amazed at myself I finished the year coloring 347 pages. I knew I had colored a lot but I didn't know I'd done that much. 

I don't have any specific coloring goals for 2024 though. I get done what I get done. 

I have completed my first book of the year titled Sable's Santa Daddy by Honey Meyer and I will be adding a post for it. 

I did my weigh in this morning and am not happy with the number at all 228.6 but I can't be upset by it, it's my own fault not watching what I ate and definitely not getting enough exercise. But I definitely hope to change that this year. By the end of December I want to be at 180 lbs. That would be another loss of around 48 lbs for the year. That's about 4 lbs a month, it's doable. 

I'm taking things one day at a time. But honestly I'm excited about this year because I have a lot of plans and things I want to make happen. Being in better health is one of them. Having the house in better order and painting done to each of the rooms. I want to take some classes on Skill Share for art and maybe even a couple for writing. I want to continue to read and color as the moods strike. For now that's enough. 

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years Eve. I know ours was quiet here at home with bubba, little man on the Switch, the two boys playing their xboxes and hubby on the computer watching you tube. Me I was busy reading lol. I don't think though I will be able to look at Santa or elves the same way again 😃😈

I will visit blogs later on today or tonight to get caught up with everyone.