Yes, I had deleted my blog and honestly, I thought it was going to be for good. There is a lot of personal reasons I won't go into right now but I've done a lot of hard thinking. I'm not going to let anyone push me out of doing something I enjoy anymore. If you want to waste your time stalking my blog then go for it.
I took this time away to do a lot of heavy thinking about how I do want to spend my time and what that would look like for me. Being online and on all of these different social media websites is fun but it is also a HUGE Time Suck for me. I feel like I'm glued to online 24/7 and for me that is a problem. I also realized that it feeds my anxiety and depression to different leveling degrees. I absolutely love You Tube but it can also be overwhelming cause you have a lot of them who are doomsayers.
So, I will be streamlining my online time, how much viewing I am taking in. I am also streamlining my planning. I agree with you, Mrs. Swan I don't think there is ever truly planner peace but at the moment I have planner contentment. I have 3 books now that I'm using for my system
This is what I will be using for my daily logs and to do list. My daily to dos and food logs arent something I need to save, it can be filled and pitched when it is full. And I wont feel bad over throwing away $1.38.
This is going to be for my personal journaling, things I want to keep private.
This is going to be my planner and catch all. I got it from Amazon, the other two are Walmart specials. 😀 And actually this planner I got from Amazon I used my Fetch reward points to buy it.
I have also been spending my time decluttering my home and finding a system to upkeep my home better. I love minimalism videos but I find a lot go beyond what will work for us so I take from them what will work for me and forget the rest. In past years I have lived my life from one extreme to the next, that never works or I was just simply trying to find a way to survive.
This year I have made some HUGE changes in my life in order to heal on all levels. One of them changes was something I had been struggling with for years, hoping that things would change in the situation but when it wouldn't I had to face the reality that the only thing that would help me heal is walking away from certain people and cutting all ties, all communication. That became the closure I needed to heal certain areas of my life.
I have also been rediscovering things I enjoy such as my drawing. I love Animal Crossing New Horizons and I play that a lot. So I will be sharing more of both. My other big hobby is coloring because it allows my creativity to go wild, it's always different, and its a huge stress reliever. When I color I get lost in the process. It is my form of mediation. I am still reading but I've come to realize that at this season of my life I'm a big mood reader. I will DNF a book now with no problem.
Another thing I'm going to be workin on this year is getting healthier. I am still struggling with being diabetic. It's hard to cut back, cut out a lot of the foods I've become so accustomed to over the years. Part of it has also been denial that I can find a way to still enjoy all of this when my body has changed and said NO, we aren't doing that anymore so it is a slow process. Especially where sugar is concerned because for me it's an addiction. I won't be able to completely cut out sugar but I can cut it down. I have managed to get my eating down. I'm not piecing or snacking all the time or letting my emotions make me eat, that's a hard one.
One of the biggest reasons I am back to blogging is because it has been something I enjoyed. I'm not doing this for anybody else, not for the likes, the views, the comments, the stalking but because I enjoy it.
Another big change in my life is my spirituality. I have spent time trying a lot of different belief systems over the years and there was always something missing, something just never felt right. I grew up in a multiple religious household which didn't benefit me either because I always felt like I had a foot on each side of the fence. But I am returning to my roots, my Native American beliefs. And I have found answers to questions that have been plaguing me for years. I finally have that sense of coming home.
So you can follow along for the journey if you like.
I will be adding a lot of things to this blog over time, especially a lot of pictures cause I'm proud of my drawings, my colored pictures.
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