Carrie Ann and the new life growing within her is all that kept her going. She should be thrilled to be having another child and yet she couldn't. Now, she was a widow with a willful child and one on the way. What man would have her now? How could she possible ever hope to find someone as faithful and loving as Daniel had been.
They had been high school sweethearts. They had what felt like almost a life time together but even that wasn't long enough. The memories weren't enough anymore to keep the heart ache at bay. Carrie Ann was their shinning light, their angel. Daniel had said so himself from the day she was born.
Her hand absently goes to the slight swell of her stomach. She wonders what he would think of this one? Would he be happy to have another child? The day that it happened was going to be the day she told him he was to be a father again. But she never got the chance. She never got the chance to say goodbye. Carrie Ann never got to tell him one last time how much she loved him being her daddy.
She had yet to tell Carrie Ann that she would soon be a sister. How would she take the news? Would she be happy or would she resent this new child?
Shannon sunk down on the chair, the towel folded half way in her lap. She'd never felt so hopeless and lost before.
Should she be happy considering their circumstances or should she do what her mother suggested and get an abortion? She had no job, no money. She was living off her grandmothers charity until she was able to get back on her feet. She'd never had to worry about that because Daniel had always taken care of money matters. He refused to let her work, said her place was at home with their baby and she had felt the same way. She'd been more than happy to be a stay at home wife. But what in the hell was she going to do now? There was no one there to take care of them long term.
She was terrified. She had no idea what to do or even where to begin.
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