Leaving Things Behind

 

For months now I have been seriously considering downsizing my social media interactions. I am someone who has an addictive personality and I can honestly admit that online at times has become/been an addiction to where it interferes with my daily life. 

So, yesterday I went in and cleared out a lot of my social media. I left online groups which went from about 20 to about 5. I have been downsizing my Instagram and curbing my time on it. I follow a lot of weight loss, recipe, christian sites on it. 

I am not reaching for my phone first thing in the morning to check social media. I'm doing my best to leave my lap top turned off most of the day and evening. I want to get back to a simpler life and social media doesn't have a big place in that vision. 

I remember before the internet, yes there was such a thing. I use to do a lot of stuff out doors, I use to listen to music, read, go for walks, play with the kids, go visit family. Hubby and I use to do a lot of paid lake fishing. We use to go for long walks through the nature trails at state parks. God, I miss those days. I truly do. 

Since I have been growing my relationship with Jesus, Mother Mary and God I have noticed that my anxiety, worries, fears, and just a general feeling of unease is not such a big issue anymore. I think a big part of it is because we're over stimulated by being able to have an online presence at our fingertips 24/7 365 days a year. 

Our youngest son and I sat down and watched Love Without Borders on Peacock. They only had 1 season filmed but it was a really good show. It was most definitely interesting. I liked it better than 90 Day Finance. But our son had some time off from work so we spent a few hours just hanging out together which was really nice. 

It's funny because since I gave myself over to God I threw out all of my spirituality, New Age things and I have absolutely no regrets, no desire to have any of it back. I don't miss it at all. I even quit watching You Tubers along those same lines of things. I deleted those kind of accounts from my Instagram. Jesus, Mother Mary, God have showed me a lot of things, have opened my eyes to a lot of things. I find myself wanting to turn back to a more feminine woman, showing my softer side all the way around not only to my husband but my family as well. I am going back to a more quiet centered nature. I'm learning to enjoy the quiet, stillness, the silence of life again as I did in my younger years. 

So leaving things behind isn't a bad thing especially when you gain so much in return.